Sisterly Love

Letting new people into my life is easy but letting them into my heart for keeps is actually one of the hardest things for me. I wouldn’t say I am cold as a fish but I am not exactly the touchy feely type. Hugs make me uncomfortable, kisses on the cheek are worse it’s like ugh are they going to lean in? Do I smell? Are they going for my cheek? My lips? Are they a double cheek kisser? Blahh it’s all too much for me. Maybe it was my past or maybe it was my fear that gets the best of me who knows but suffice it to say I am not normally one to attach on to people. My husband I adore more than words, my parents mean the world to me, my daughter IS my world, and my dear best friend well she has been apart of me since we were 5. I have a few other very close friends but those girls I also have known forever and even though I don’t see them very often I would do anything for them. Once someone is in my heart they stay forever no matter what happens between us. I just don’t let people out since it takes so much to let them in.

So when my dear sister-n-law started inching her way in recently I couldn’t really explain it. I have known her since 2007 but this year actually this fall it’s like a switch flipped or something inside me.  I couldn’t wait to talk to her, I loved hanging out with her this summer, she makes me laugh, and the strangest part yet is I trust her? What? I must love her? Dang that means she’s apart of me. How did that happen? I thought I was all booked up with what I needed and now she slipped in. I wasn’t expecting this. It’s actually scary to me and I know how strange this sounds but I adore her. I wish we lived closer. I am an only child and for the first time in my life I have a real sister! I mean yes Dini Lu is always my sister, my bestie for life, but now with my sister n law I have a sister. Before it was just in name but now it’s in my heart too. I am as shocked as you are about this. I don’t tend to display this sort of cheese and mush to the public but here it is. I am happy to have her in my life even if it did take me 6 years to get here.