To Love It Here or Not?

For a while I haven’t been able to write because I was feeling a bit in a slump after we came back from Colorado. When I was there visiting with family, and friends a nagging question kept coming to my mind; did I make the right decision moving our little family to California? Away from the people we love, away from our home, and away from everything we knew?  For about a month or so I pondered this and it left me in a constant state of befuddlement. I love it here. Should I not? It’s so expensive to live here! Shouldn’t we live in Colorado where it’s much cheaper? I kept going back in forth and it gave me a really distressing feeling everyday.

Then one day I just stopped, looked around and asked myself are you really happy here? I don’t know if I was afraid to say it aloud for fear that this would make this move permanent. Or was I  afraid of upsetting my Colorado friends and family? Here is the truth in a nutshell. I love it here! Not like, love it here! Really! I go on walks almost every single day and this is the most beautiful, quaint town I have been apart of. I feel blessed to live here. I recognize that it is expensive. Now I know this is going to sound crazy but if you have located you favorite place on earth to live and it was really cheap don’t you think everyone would want move there too? Even the ones that really didn’t see the beauty you did? My point is I believe the price to live here can be justified.  I think once I got past the money thing, and well now the condo thing I started enjoy my days here again. It’s so fun. Okay not everyday since people argue, its gets hot, life isn’t perfect but for the most part life here right now is the most fun I have had in a very long time. I love walking everywhere: to the beach, the farmers market every Sunday, to dinner with my little family, and even just by myself for peace of mind. I spend a lot of time these days with my own thoughts. That’s when I realized how happy I actually am. Who knew? Right?

The one thing I will say was holding me back on completely loving this place is living in the condo. I really miss having a house there is no two ways about it. I love having our own space, our own yard, and just room to be us without other people everywhere. That is my biggest adjustment. However, knowing this is just a place to rest our wings until we figure out where to put our roots makes it much easier and more enjoyable. I know we will have a house here someday. I believe it. I believe it in the same way I believed I could get us here. It would be careless of me to not mention the power of attraction here. While some people don’t think about it much I do. I know that you have to feel something in your heart to make it happen. I know that's how I found where we are living right now and made it a reality.  

So to answer the questions most asked of me do you love it here? The answer is simply Yes! Do you plan to stay? Unless something drastic changes why would I not stay?